Lo Loestrin FE norethindrone acetate and ethinyl estradiol tablets,
1mg/10 mcg
oh
how blessed I am to know your safe embrace,
my days arranged in order so my blood
is forced to follow. you, manufactured
curves. you, immaculate interception
beneath my thumb, small tokens of freedom
shining blue, a leading man’s interested
eye. you, more precious than the lovers we
forget together. for you, I forsake
all others. I accept no substitutes,
the witch they turn me into and the welts
across my stubborn youth. it had to be
you and I will be loyal as long as
I can afford to. I cannot afford
to take my friends’ advice, or the doctors
they echo, a three-letter entreaty,
IUD? well-meaning, misplaced refrain.
I will remain yours: you alone bring me
into my body, soothe the savage breast,
the swell of my age and my anger. how
could I have loved without you? to ease my
insides, the shift-click-drop of a cycle
restarting, the cut of the month. my own
ocean, all ebb, no flow. a mirror held
against the distant moon, incapable
of renewal without your guidance, the
blistered, borrowed light. oh, my darling, eight
o’clock, tonight, and every night, until
we outlive all we were created for.
