Vol. 7 No. 1

Summer 2024

Red Astral Uterus
Editor's Note
Albanian Folk Dance
In the Barn
Death Cleaning
How Everything And Nothing Changes
The Civilian Conservation Corps
Sunrise and Mountains
GPS
One Spoon or Two
Pando
Matching Blue
The Body of God
Annual Visit
Joshua Tree Yellow Flowers
Neighbors
Artichoke
Centaur
Epiphyte Lessons
Joshua Tree October 14 2023
Invisible Work
Loblolly Pine in August
Enthralled to the Dead
Nothing Compares
The world goes on
Why We Let the Striped Bass Go
Sunset in Joshua Tree, 2024
The Walker
shame and the way it hangs from the body like wet linen
Life Cycle
Unsafe at Any Speed
Today a River
This Man on the Street
Alder and Salmon
Induced by the Ice Moon,
Don't Look
At South Lido Park, When My Husband Has COVID
Ice Cave
Nonverbal Communication
The Making of Horses
Series: Asemic Metamorphoses of Space, (vers. 14)
What Noah's Wife Did
The Pregnancy Pillow
Sunrise, September Five
Even Though My Ulna Popped out of the Skin When I Fell off the 6th-grade Monkey Bar…
Loosdrecht schaatsen
Wood Ear
Foraging for Wine
Wisława Szymborska and the Wounded Angel
Bracken
The Forgotten Tree
If you could be any animal?
When My Mom’s Ghost Comes To Visit Me
Parent's Day
Blues
A Decade of Seasons I
Hairpin
As Highway and Bridge
The Drive Back Home from School with Mom
A Decade of Seasons III
Two Defenseless Haibun
Germination
Elevated Convection
Marigolds
Turbulence, A Zuihitsu
Harmony of Humanity: Evolving Empathy
Missing Persons Report #3
What's It Like To Be a Guinea Pig?
Desert Penumbra
Tangled Yarn: Abstract Elegance in Tufted Artistry, Where Fashion Meets Canvas IV
Keep Child Away From Window
Red Signs
By Water
The light at the end of the tunnel
Starting from Scratch
Bird Singing in the Moonlight
The mnemonic FINISH neatly summarizes the symptoms of antidepressant discontinuation syndrome
Taboo and Emotional Ambivalence
Bad Omens
This is My Impression of a Very Good Girl
Ordinary Nights
Dialogue with the innocent dragon

When My Mom’s Ghost Comes To Visit Me

We make pumpkin pie together.

My mom’s wife used to make us popcorn, glorious popcorn, popped in oil and coated in butter and so many cloves of garlic we could hear the vampires overhead, flapping their bat wings faster and faster to escape the waves of garlic wafting from the windows, and then of course nutritional yeast because nutritional yeast appears in your cabinets the moment you understand you are a lesbian, and there was salt, and pepper, and while she made us the popcorn my mom and I would sit like baby birds, watching her, our mouths open with popcorn want.

But when my mom’s ghost comes to visit me, we make pumpkin pie. Neither of us can cook so we use canned spiced pumpkin and one egg and a crust in a box and we whip the cream in a bowl with a whisk which we call cooking and we laugh in delight because we are together, and just like always the pumpkin pie seems to take hours in the oven but it means we get to spend longer, squatting in front of the warm oven window, saying words and words and words that seem like a conversation but all mean I still dream you’re alive, I still remember the feel of your calloused hands, I still can’t look at photos of you even though it’s been ten years, I still, I still, the words all mean I love you. I miss you.

And when the pie has cooled and we have each smothered a piece in whipped cream, my mom’s ghost leaves when I’m looking away. When I least expect it.

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