Vol. 7 No. 1

Summer 2024

Red Astral Uterus
Editor's Note
Albanian Folk Dance
In the Barn
Death Cleaning
How Everything And Nothing Changes
The Civilian Conservation Corps
Sunrise and Mountains
GPS
One Spoon or Two
Pando
Matching Blue
The Body of God
Annual Visit
Joshua Tree Yellow Flowers
Neighbors
Artichoke
Centaur
Epiphyte Lessons
Joshua Tree October 14 2023
Invisible Work
Loblolly Pine in August
Enthralled to the Dead
Nothing Compares
The world goes on
Why We Let the Striped Bass Go
Sunset in Joshua Tree, 2024
The Walker
shame and the way it hangs from the body like wet linen
Life Cycle
Unsafe at Any Speed
Today a River
This Man on the Street
Alder and Salmon
Induced by the Ice Moon,
Don't Look
At South Lido Park, When My Husband Has COVID
Ice Cave
Nonverbal Communication
The Making of Horses
Series: Asemic Metamorphoses of Space, (vers. 14)
What Noah's Wife Did
The Pregnancy Pillow
Sunrise, September Five
Even Though My Ulna Popped out of the Skin When I Fell off the 6th-grade Monkey Bar…
Loosdrecht schaatsen
Wood Ear
Foraging for Wine
Wisława Szymborska and the Wounded Angel
Bracken
The Forgotten Tree
If you could be any animal?
When My Mom’s Ghost Comes To Visit Me
Parent's Day
Blues
A Decade of Seasons I
Hairpin
As Highway and Bridge
The Drive Back Home from School with Mom
A Decade of Seasons III
Two Defenseless Haibun
Germination
Elevated Convection
Marigolds
Turbulence, A Zuihitsu
Harmony of Humanity: Evolving Empathy
Missing Persons Report #3
What's It Like To Be a Guinea Pig?
Desert Penumbra
Tangled Yarn: Abstract Elegance in Tufted Artistry, Where Fashion Meets Canvas IV
Keep Child Away From Window
Red Signs
By Water
The light at the end of the tunnel
Starting from Scratch
Bird Singing in the Moonlight
The mnemonic FINISH neatly summarizes the symptoms of antidepressant discontinuation syndrome
Taboo and Emotional Ambivalence
Bad Omens
This is My Impression of a Very Good Girl
Ordinary Nights
Dialogue with the innocent dragon

Nothing Compares

                              Eyes of October’s Irish Sea – all temperatures at
                              once.

                              I was too young for a love like that but her vocals
                              carved a gorge. Today I accept the bottomless well: I
                              may not see the love I think I need during this
                              collection of breaths I call a life.

                                                                                ◯

                              In my early twenties I lived in a dirty tenement in
                              Hell’s Kitchen. Single handedly populated the
                              ground floor’s karaoke bar with musician friends.
                              Every week I nagged Mary Hanley to do “Nothing
                              Compares 2 U.” It never wore. No matter what
                              drunken hookups or brawls brewed, everyone
                              silenced when Mary inhabited Sinéad. Mary – wisp
                              of fairy Goth-daughter, smeared Merlot lipstick, too-
                              thick eyeliner, torn fishnets. When she sang that
                              song she was an angel.

                              Sinéad refused to perform sexuality and allure.
                              Karen Finley asked me, How do you relate to that? I
                              said, With the same admiration I hold for mountain
                              climbers & others who achieve what I will never
. I
                              stand on my little bound feet, mirror-check several
                              times a day, ensure this dress lays properly over my
                              silhouette, my hair curls according to my will. I do
                              not know whether femininity was born in me like
                              the propensity for freckles, or beaten into me
                              like the lie that screamed at the inner walls of my
                              skull this morning when I secured the door shut
                              behind my new man. He can’t get away from you fast
                              enough
.

                                                                                ◯

                              I would be an awkward colt with a shaved head. In
                              my feedbag gather a thousand grains that taste like
                              the Stanley Steemer carpet cleaning tech telling me
                              he wants to rub my pretty toes. He’d knelt on the
                              floor to show me where old glass chips buried
                              in the padding. Men’s desires: gardens I tend. Fat red
                              bell peppers slice open, reveal flat white seeds.

                                                                                ◯

                              After Norman’s death, my grandmother lamented in
                              my arms, What is a woman’s life if there is no
                              husband to need her?

                              I pen achievable action plans every day. I need
                              written-out structures. Else l hack at my arms with
                              shards of funhouse mirrors.

                                                                                ◯

                              My mother was – is – weak in her constitution. I grit
                              sand on her soft pink tongue, never turn pearl. She
                              hardly breathes around me, much less sings her
                              violin’s long plaintive cries. Mine drowns hers. When
                              I was young she locked me where walls would
                              absorb my sound. This is common in addict
                              households. She feared kicking the wasp nest of my
                              father’s habit, doused her daughter in pesticides
                              instead. Her eyes reside at the geographic center of a
                              billowing white tent.

                              This is what I inherit from my family: lemming-like
                              desires to numb. I never called it that. I called it
                              pleasure, rocketed to the one place I didn’t have to
                              think about how small my world had become. How,
                              in that cold corner of Michigan, in a whole week the
                              only human voice I heard was my own addict
                              husband’s.

                                                                                ◯

                              I’m not for this public. They’re not for me. I fantasize
                              about the year 2183, a century from my death.
                              Advanced humans unclasp their UV protection suits
                              to kiss into each other’s mouths potable water
                              infused with my microchipped poetry. That’s how I
                              want them to transmit me, via love to which nothing
                              compares.

                                                                                ◯

                              I harbor the harmed. No longer a fighter, nor a
                              brawler. I fought for the better part of my life. No
                              one’s lot improved for it, least of all mine. I shelter
                              the damned, as Sinéad did. Good days come one at a
                              time.

                              Noble life is to sit, quiet. Let your death take its time.
                              Wade in the sea. Watch sunlight on its ripple.

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