—“The way to control your life is to control your choice of
words and thoughts.” Louise Hay, You Can Heal Your Life
Louise says, it’s only a thought & a thought
can be changed. I think about giraffe babies
without spots, birth in captivity, how I don’t know
what I’d change them to. Louise says,
my happy thoughts help create
my healthy body. I wonder why dental floss
has an expiration date, visualize
microorganisms breaching my cupid’s bow.
Whatever I need to know is revealed to me
at exactly the right time, but I am googling
these same words in every possible syntax.
ductal. carcinoma. lymph. metastasis. Every thought
I think is creating my future, but the singular thought
mastectomy sticks even in my interdental spaces,
will not yield. Wellness is the natural state
of my body. She says, I am in perfect health. I am pain
free & totally in sync with life. I am beautiful
& everybody loves me. It is safe to look within.
Louise says I need to let go of the thoughts
that led me to dis-ease. Louise says her anger
was a cancer & rape was the virulent core she released
so love could flow through her body, vanquish all
squamous cells from her cervix. She says my actual ill is not
saying no enough, allowing resentment & fear to ferment
in me, forgetting that I do not fix problems. I fix
my thinking. Then problems fix themselves.
The past is over. My life gets better all the time.
