The way you know
you’ll fail this diet
like you fail them all.
The way it doesn’t stop
you from gathering
recipes, prepaying
the gym, noting
locations of lockers, buying
a new lock on the way
home. The way anything starts
bright, a star-spark flare
in the dark that lets
you catch your breath
and say yes—this time
I can feel it now even
as you fall face-first into
a blackness you should’ve
seen coming. Hunger
burning no matter
what you eat. No
sustenance. Living
on crumbs, licking them
shame-faced off
your fingers in the back,
the homeless man
scarfing a garbage
burger next to you
not even glancing
your way.
You eat and eat but
are not satiated, this diet
of cavernous loneliness
brimmed with sweets
turns your bones weak,
your thin heart
beating an unsyncopated
song. Your mouth open
like a newborn bird’s,
the richness of this
life you chose
leaving you famished.
Hunger
A Pushcart nominee, Sharon Lee Snow earned an MFA in Creative Writing from the University of South Florida. Her award-winning short stories, creative nonfiction, and poetry have been published in Griffel, Glassworks, The Concrete Desert Review, South 85, Typehouse, Gulf Stream, Bridge Eight, Finding the Birds, and other journals. Connect with her @sharonleesnow.