The Devil’s Interval

Before my mother had surgery on her deviated septum, the doctor
     said she
must have had a broken nose at one time.  
How could this be unknown to the woman on whose face the nose
     resided? 

Well, shit happens, she said, as we wound through hulking banks of
     snow in her car, 
moving towards the heat and flame of a glass blowing studio 
where we would make paperweights. 

For the lesson, the instructors handed out safety glasses and arm
     gear 
to protect us from the hot liquid glass, 
ready to be formed into something extraordinary. 

A wooden paddle was to be held 
as protection between the arm and the rod that drew up the molten
glass, swirling and rolling

to make the paperweight’s shape as it cooled

heavy and devastating in its permanency. 

My mother with her crooked nose took up the paddle first. 
She was armed to protect me 
as I rolled the molten glass under streaming water. 

Dwarfed by industrial furnaces and soaring warehouse ceilings,
she stood with her feet slightly apart on the concrete floor. 
Fine strands of gray webbed through her hair, cast in fluorescent
     light. 

She choked up on the paddle, a child at bat. 
Her jaw, dimpled with pocks from a million furious smoke
     inhalations 
set rigid out of habit even after her rage had finally subsided.  

Reflexively, she swung the paddle low, the height of a naughty child’s
     behind. 
This time her force stirred up only dust, and air, and sorrow for a
     woman still trying 
to protect herself from a broken nose.

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