First you grab your leg
and hoist it on the table, the white
cast around it a hot, itchy heft.
Sit on the edge, pull up
your other leg, set it beside
the white cast.
Start scribbling on both,
cutting deep. You want to draw
blood, not raise welts.
Flesh and gypsum don’t matter.
When legs disappear, prop
yourself up on your hand.
Cut out the half-moons
of your nails for the dark nights
of this journey.
Fingers and palms are the best
to write on: phone numbers,
directions, arrows
to a lover’s heart, poems,
like now, when you’ve run
out of paper, tablecloth, napkins.
Wave good-bye
to your vanishing hand
with your writing one.
Scrawl around your navel
dark inkblots of initiation,
the unseen umbilicus
a fragile rope to a newborn
body. The pubis, squiggly
with words, is already gone.
You’re sitting in midair,
arm unhooked from its joint,
carving your back,
which by now should be only
a memory of a spine, shoulder
blades, coccyx, and buns.
Your hand hovers over
that face you rarely liked,
making sure to write off
its belligerent mouth,
squirting ink where the eyes
must have been
.
After a short-term
blindness, you see again,
better, the outline
of your written-away husk
almost completed, minus
one hand, now high
in the air, performing feats
of contortion, a juggler
with words, a tightrope
walker, a tamer of hungry
dry spells, soon to join you and be
whole again.
