I met you when I went to pick up a table
from your house. I saw you on the white
mantle. Your floppy leaves were grieving.
You were not facing the window. Your
home was being cleared out. I asked if I
could have you. The caretaker paused
and sized me up, then told me you had
loved two women before me, that you
were passed from mother to daughter.
Was I willing to love you carefully like
they had? I brought you home and wanted
to give you light so I put you outside.
Your bright green (on front) and red
(on back) leaves burnt, swelled, and
turned brown. I thought I killed you.
I felt unworthy of your nurtured legacy.
I felt unqualified. I had no idea if you
could rebound, and if so; should I cut off
all your leaves, or would you mend them?
I decided to cut them off which left you
with only one brown limb, lying flush
against the soil. I placed you in a window
that I knew in my body was the right place
for you all along. I gave you water and
nutrients. Very quickly you rebounded,
fanning out over a few weeks to your
original glittering wide-leaf self.
Begonia
Jennifer Lothrigel is a poet and artist in the San Francisco Bay area. Her chapbook Pneuma was published by Liquid Light Press in 2018. Her work has been published in Arcturus, Rag Queen Periodical, and Bitter Zoet, among others.