May you live a long life
—Jewish saying
I want my life to be something more than long
—Pippin
A stuttering of froth
I mean an embryo in its space sac
its flaccid suit holding a fluid mountain
I mean an embryonic trying to ooze its way human
What bulges become
How salt is pinched
That beginnings house splinters of their end
The weather between ooze and the cry-slap
The whisper between fluttering and the mother
Fractions stretch on a childhood
How our arrows don’t parallel
I mean how you tried to curfew a life
Saturn eats regret
its rings, a clean slate
it spins, scott-free
like how the specter portals
I coveted the labyrinthine
A night flicked loosening
A gravel-filled pit still a cloud
with too much rain
Charred remains make headlines
I uncoiled a snake from my neck I mean a cordon
of blood-temples and canals a shrine
Sad eyes scorned like a crisis
A gesture between diapers and a postcard
I had a craving to swan
I pirated a midnight
The cracked marble the room remained itself a hidden else
Wood warps unattended
That silver heart I bought you from Tiffany’s
That lapis heart from my favorite place on Bleecker
Dust fills words nested in stone
Who knew my heart could squeeze so hard
You opened the oven looking for orange juice
Sat shuffling little papers as if precious
As if they could ever answer
or order your world
How the order of things left you
You asked what buttons were
bra on blouse
The way daffodils curl your fingers
The origami of a disease
How a body says no
The way your eyes forgot my face
That day that last good day
Splatter searing neurons
On the balcony tea and snacks in small words and the wind
You said if Marty were here he’d have us laughing
he always did that face those jokes
it never got old
The weightlessness of joy
The weight of unlived life
We couldn’t have done anything
I meant to say we couldn’t have done anything
differently
How simple it is
when our manifestos for distance
have been forgotten
To know how to revive the dead
As if my idea of you could ever
As if any idea of you could ever even
I have been listening to Leslie’s writings for some time now. Always a pleaure